I tried to play it cool. I tried to be all like...yeah this...this bike anime...is not THAT cool...it's not THAT great...
but...but it is great...it's GREAT, you guys...it's great and I love it...and best of all so many of my friends are getting infected beyond hope of salvation...please talk to me about your yowapedal feelings if you have them I HAVE SO MANY I KEEP TRYING TO PLAY IT COOL BUT I LOVE EVERYONE SO MUCH OTL ESPECIALLY MY IDIOT DUMB SPEEDSTERS...tadokoro...naruko...
speaking of awful fallen_woman is awful (AND BY THAT I MEAN SHE'S THE BEST) jfc one of my digimon songs just came on my winamp and it's enough to make me want to lay my face on the floor and cry instead of draw but I have to draw I have so MUCH STUFF TO DRAW i wanna draw the...yowapeds...I wanna draw all of them...
Edit: Sammy passed at the vets office on Monday while I was still in LA.
Above, an alpaca full of beauty, charm, and grace.
Then I came home and thought to myself, self - you have about fourty-eight hours left to get ready for Anime Expo - oh, right, yeah, that's happening - here's a photo of myself pretending to be ready for Anime Expo:
Beautiful. ( Anyway, I could not physically force myself to do any artwork whatsoever. )
( there will be some gory and some suggestive stuff in here, but the porn is in another castle )
AND FROM NOW ON I COULD ACTUALLY UPDATE LJ WITH CURRENT ART AND STUFF?? Which is a seriously novel concept. I will have to get to work on making more :)
Give me between two and three characters + a prompt and I will write a drabble at least three sentences long in response.
I'll leave this post open indefinitely so if you ever get bored just come back here and sling ideas at me <3
(beautiful in death)
So, I spent about a year and change on a Thor FST to match my favorite Loki one...and naturally, that left me one brother short of my ideal trio. So Kat and I embarked upon the endless search for the perfect combination for Balder the White. We did a really good job until we got stuck for like...months because we couldn't find THE PERFECT Frigga song (Loki and Thor each have one, so it was unthinkable that Balder shouldn't) - but last night, we prevailed.
In true Balder style, most of this music is soft and depressing. This is probably a good FST to fall asleep to, or like, drown to. One or the other. So I'm not sure if "enjoy" is the right prompt to leave here, but it is pretty, so enjoy anyway!
Cover (and most of the track selections) by mattatoio, I was basically the assistant on this one.
01 | Great Lake Swimmers - Put There By The Land [x] [Nature]
there's a mark on my hand put there by the land
can't you see it's in me, can't you see?
there's a mark on the land put there by my hand
02 | Blank Capsule - Compulsion [x] [Confidence; or lack thereof]
finding the right words
can be a problem
how many times must it be said
there's no plan
it had to happen
03 | Gravenhurst - Song Among the Pine [x] [Nature (reprise)]
the ripple of the stream
is just one way the forest speaks to me
the anger in the streets
is just the way a broken city breathes
04 | Lightning Dust - Wondering What Everyone Knows [x] [Love]
you are a sound in my head
sew up my ears with your thread
with you on my head
and me on my toes
wondering what everyone knows
05 | Jose Gonzalez - How Low [x] [Loki]
someday you'll be up to your knees
in the shit you seed.
all the gullible
that you mislead
won't be up for it
06 | Murder by Death - Go To The Light [Failure]
pushed on and pushed aside
i've changed my song to match each story
i've changes sides
can i watch 'em as they fall
when they finally try to stand
redeem myself for everyone I've buried with these hands?
07 | Big Haunt - Burn Me Up [x] [Sorrow]
i'll be seeded
mended with the land
i'll grow quiet
i'll turn myself to sand
08 | Ane Brun - Lullaby for Grown-Ups [x] [Frigga]
don’t be afraid
don’t wear your inside out
to keep you warm
09 | Akira Yamaoka - Betrayal [x] [Ragnarok]
when I was a boy, I traveled often. forests opened to me, wolves put away their fangs and trod by my side as if they were pups. I learned the language of birds through their careful, patient tutelage, that they would offer no one else.
as I grew, a sword grew from my arm. it forged me like a chain to my brothers and sisters, together in arms we would defend, together in blood we would ravage. I gave up Gaea's gentle caress for the harsh and savage embrace of my people. the birds are strangers, now, the wolves beasts.
yet, when I kiss the face of a red blossom, the color drains, and the darling turns white against my lips.
Moving on halloween itself was kind of hilarious to be honest, because while my old block was sparse on the trick-or-treaters, this new one was SWARMING. The circle I now live on has an incredible array of fun-house level decorators and hundreds upon hundreds of kids showed up, meanwhile I was there awkwardly maneuvering my U-Haul truck and my fucking couch that is impossible to carry and fits through no doors known to man (why did anyone ever make this thing). We got pretty much everything in the house, though, finally, and that's what matters. Here are some photos of it before we crammed it full of stuff!
( moving stuff under here )
( if that's your thing, come right on in! )
This is probably the fattest post I have ever made jfc do be warned.
warnings: fetishy stuff, rough stuff, a little bit of non/dub con, microphilia, inter-species, totally non human genetalia.
( oh and also mer-dicks, which are not like human dicks very much at all )
...Wow okay so I'm really reallly out of practice constructing LJ posts and have drawn about 8000 things since the last time I got my journal current. Please be patient with me as I clumsily archive tons and tons of stuff.
I am MOVING soon! Not to anywhere different as far as location, but to a house instead of a tiny apartment, with a third beloved roommate, and dear god I cannot wait but it's going to be so much work.
also I think I failed to even mention I have a job now? and I cleared all my debt to DLLR, though that's a more recent development. and um. I'm working on a comic..and hopefully overall improving my art, though I have not made any significant jumps recently ugh.
I also just finished a really porny Rush one shot and I'm REALLY HAPPY it did not turn into a monster epic like The Northern Sea did. I finished that, though, even though it caused me two minor mental breakdowns. I am a very weak and sad writer.
I'm...really excited for Thor 2 but also really scared for what the fandom will be like after the movie comes out. I'm not particularly frightened about what anyone will do, per se, but it's gotten kind of unfathomably massive since the Avengers came out and I spend too much time on tumblr (I should probably cut down, a lot) and I get really...dragged down and overstimulated just by the constant flow an repetition of images. I think that's probably part of the reason I had this kind of sobby reaction finally opening up LJ again, because it reminds me of the early Thor fandom (which was my own return to fandom after a long, painful, unintentional break), the first rounds of Norsekink, and all the fics that are still by FAR my favorite, because as the quantity has gone up, not only has my perception of the quality gone down (my favorite authors left/stopped writing and I have always been incredibly scared of sifting through shitty fic) but the entire fandom focus seems in general to be very, for lack of better words, "tumblr-minded" - "give me as much as possible as fast as possible and let me literally DROWN myself in churned out imagery/gifs/videos ect until I can barely think" - which gets overwhelming for me very quickly, as well as aids in actually totally killing my personal passion for something. Not permanently, but I need to take some huge steps back - but THEN I don't feel like I'm actually involved or interacting in the fandom - OK RANT GETTING CUT SHORT BECAUSE I HAVE TO GO TO WORK but I wonder if anyone gets what I mean by this discombobulated crap I'm spewing.
Did you know you can buy Smut Peddler as a digital download for 15$? It's true, and the book is fucking AWESOME. We're still waiting for a solid ETA on the print version, but that will be even more amazing, I can't wait to hold it in my hands. Seriously, though, all the stories are incredibly top notch, hot as hell, and extremely inclusive. It's a brilliant read <3
( unrelated smut comics by myself under the cut )
A nine-track fanmix attempting to paint a portrait of the God of Thunder.
( Track listing, lyrics, notes, and download links inside. )
About a year ago, when I first got into the Thor fandom, I came across About Being Noticed by wicked_time, a Loki fanmix I ended up falling deeply in love with. It's very rare for me to find a full mix of songs I not only listen to over and over again, but also find perfect for the character. What really struck me about the mix, though, was the sense of chronology, and how listening to it from beginning to end felt like I was being absorbed in the story of Loki's personality.
The only thing missing from the perfect world where this fanmix existed, clearly, was an equivalent for Thor. I have been working on this for months, trying and re-trying tracks until I nursed it to my ear's satisfaction. My ear is finally satisfied, so here it is!
Full fst [@dropbox] [@8tracks]
01 | Carbon Leaf - Shine [x] [Youth]
it's the giant, so defiant
but I'm happier if I can sleep
if I wake though, volcano! fee fi fo fum bang the drum around or put it down
and figure out if I'm out of line
02 | Darren Korb - Spike in a Rail [x] [Reckless]
03 | Puscifer - Momma Sed [x] [Frigga]
wake up son of mine
momma got something to tell you
life will have its way
with your pride, son
04 | The National - Forever After Days [x] [Responsible]
take my shot under the light
heroes come the common way
pull myself into the sky
wrap me in the banner I made
05 | Nick Cave - Come Into My Sleep [x] [Jane]
take your accusations your incriminations and toss them into the ocean blue
leave your regrets and impossible longings scattered across the sky behind you
and come into my sleep
06 | Murder by Death - Ash [x] [Comrades in Arms]
the ghosts were howlin' in the late afternoon, we were
singin' along to the same old tune.
I turned to my brothers to look them in the eye;
there was ash...ash falling from the sky.
07 | A Perfect Circle - Crimes [x] [Unstable]
08 | Sneaker Pimps - The Fuel [x] [Sexual]
I've got the fuel in my head from the flesh; I need to break sweat
I've got the fuel and I might get offensive; I might be some threat
I want back doors, want blood on the sheets again
give me back doors, give me blood on sheets again
09 | Murder by Death - White Noise [x] [Resolved]
you've heard the stories of me
you know what I can do
I take the embers of man's anger
and there's nothing I can't spin them into
Bonus Track - Mjolnir's Song
XX | A Perfect Circle - The Hollow (Constantly Consuming Mix) [x]
so grow, libido, throw
dominoes of indiscretions down
falling all around, in cycles, in circles
conquer and devour
Full fst [@dropbox] [@8tracks]
Cover graphic credit goes to mattatoio.
One more thing that gets its own special post! The ladies of Smut Peddler have launched its KICKSTARTER - which means you are that close to owning a 350 page anthology of original lady-made PORN.
The work is all amazing. I put a few teaser panels of my own contribution as well as a compilation image under the cut!
( click for more porn NSFW )