Things Are Such

(beautiful in death)

A Balder Odinson FST

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So, I spent about a year and change on a Thor FST to match my favorite Loki one...and naturally, that left me one brother short of my ideal trio. So Kat and I embarked upon the endless search for the perfect combination for Balder the White. We did a really good job until we got stuck for like...months because we couldn't find THE PERFECT Frigga song (Loki and Thor each have one, so it was unthinkable that Balder shouldn't) - but last night, we prevailed.

In true Balder style, most of this music is soft and depressing. This is probably a good FST to fall asleep to, or like, drown to. One or the other. So I'm not sure if "enjoy" is the right prompt to leave here, but it is pretty, so enjoy anyway!

Cover (and most of the track selections) by mattatoio, I was basically the assistant on this one.

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01 | Great Lake Swimmers - Put There By The Land [x] [Nature]
there's a mark on my hand put there by the land
can't you see it's in me, can't you see?
there's a mark on the land put there by my hand

02 | Blank Capsule - Compulsion [x] [Confidence; or lack thereof]
finding the right words
can be a problem
how many times must it be said
there's no plan
it had to happen

03 | Gravenhurst - Song Among the Pine [x] [Nature (reprise)]
the ripple of the stream
is just one way the forest speaks to me
the anger in the streets
is just the way a broken city breathes

04 | Lightning Dust - Wondering What Everyone Knows [x] [Love]
you are a sound in my head
sew up my ears with your thread
with you on my head
and me on my toes
wondering what everyone knows

05 | Jose Gonzalez - How Low [x] [Loki]
someday you'll be up to your knees
in the shit you seed.
all the gullible
that you mislead
won't be up for it

06 | Murder by Death - Go To The Light [Failure]
pushed on and pushed aside
i've changed my song to match each story
i've changes sides
can i watch 'em as they fall
when they finally try to stand
redeem myself for everyone I've buried with these hands?

07 | Big Haunt - Burn Me Up [x] [Sorrow]
i'll be seeded
mended with the land
i'll grow quiet
i'll turn myself to sand

08 | Ane Brun - Lullaby for Grown-Ups [x] [Frigga]
don’t be afraid
anymore
don’t wear your inside out
to keep you warm

09 | Akira Yamaoka - Betrayal [x] [Ragnarok]
[instrumental]

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when I was a boy, I traveled often. forests opened to me, wolves put away their fangs and trod by my side as if they were pups. I learned the language of birds through their careful, patient tutelage, that they would offer no one else.

as I grew, a sword grew from my arm. it forged me like a chain to my brothers and sisters, together in arms we would defend, together in blood we would ravage. I gave up Gaea's gentle caress for the harsh and savage embrace of my people. the birds are strangers, now, the wolves beasts.

yet, when I kiss the face of a red blossom, the color drains, and the darling turns white against my lips.

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I am going to split all this art that I have into lots of different categories, starting with probably the most important - ALL THE PORN IN ONE PLACE YAY.

warnings: fetishy stuff, rough stuff, a little bit of non/dub con, microphilia, inter-species, totally non human genetalia.

( oh and also mer-dicks, which are not like human dicks very much at all )
...Wow okay so I'm really reallly out of practice constructing LJ posts and have drawn about 8000 things since the last time I got my journal current. Please be patient with me as I clumsily archive tons and tons of stuff.

A nine-track fanmix attempting to paint a portrait of the God of Thunder.

( Track listing, lyrics, notes, and download links inside. )

About a year ago, when I first got into the Thor fandom, I came across About Being Noticed by wicked_time, a Loki fanmix I ended up falling deeply in love with. It's very rare for me to find a full mix of songs I not only listen to over and over again, but also find perfect for the character. What really struck me about the mix, though, was the sense of chronology, and how listening to it from beginning to end felt like I was being absorbed in the story of Loki's personality.

The only thing missing from the perfect world where this fanmix existed, clearly, was an equivalent for Thor. I have been working on this for months, trying and re-trying tracks until I nursed it to my ear's satisfaction. My ear is finally satisfied, so here it is!


Full fst [@dropbox] [@8tracks]

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01 | Carbon Leaf - Shine [x] [Youth]
     it's the giant, so defiant
    but I'm happier if I can sleep
     if I wake though, volcano! fee fi fo fum bang the drum around or put it down
    and figure out if I'm out of line

02 | Darren Korb - Spike in a Rail [x] [Reckless]
      [instrumental]

03 | Puscifer - Momma Sed [x] [Frigga]
     wake up son of mine
     momma got something to tell you
     life will have its way
     with your pride, son

04 | The National - Forever After Days [x] [Responsible]
     take my shot under the light
     heroes come the common way
     pull myself into the sky
     wrap me in the banner I made

05 | Nick Cave - Come Into My Sleep [x] [Jane]
     take your accusations your incriminations and toss them into the ocean blue
     leave your regrets and impossible longings scattered across the sky behind you
     and come into my sleep

06 | Murder by Death - Ash [x] [Comrades in Arms]
    the ghosts were howlin' in the late afternoon, we were
     singin' along to the same old tune.
     I turned to my brothers to look them in the eye;
     there was ash...ash falling from the sky.

07 | A Perfect Circle - Crimes [x] [Unstable]
      [atmospheric]

08 | Sneaker Pimps - The Fuel [x] [Sexual]
     I've got the fuel in my head from the flesh; I need to break sweat
     I've got the fuel and I might get offensive; I might be some threat
     I want back doors, want blood on the sheets again
     give me back doors, give me blood on sheets again

09 | Murder by Death - White Noise [x] [Resolved]
     you've heard the stories of me
     you know what I can do
     I take the embers of man's anger
     and there's nothing I can't spin them into

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Bonus Track - Mjolnir's Song
XX | A Perfect Circle - The Hollow (Constantly Consuming Mix) [x]
      so grow, libido, throw
     dominoes of indiscretions down
     falling all around, in cycles, in circles
     constantly consuming
       conquer and devour

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Full fst [@dropbox] [@8tracks]

Cover graphic credit goes to mattatoio.

Brief PWP porn, warnings for bondage and throatfucking, and Loki getting his way too much (I do need to warn for that, right?)

( It’s not dominance, brother. It’s trust. You do trust me, don’t you? )

After about a million years! There will be some NSFW images under the cut, I think, all the usual warnings apply.

Oh, also! Anime Boston got resolved :D I'm all good to go in that department!


( Can you guess what movie I'm really excited about )

Dumping a bunch of Thor art in here that I haven't put up on my LJ yet because I keep telling myself that I'll get back in the habit of posting art on my LJ and I never do so - today I am breaking that pattern.



( I guarantee you will find inappropriate/nsfw stuff below )

My thoughts on this combine various marvel canons as well as a healthy dose of just plain MYTHOLOGY IS KING to meditate on a more satisfying bridge as to why Thor revived Loki after having finally killed him permanently.

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He longs for eternal destruction. But not in peace, not ever in peace. If he cannot be tortured, and torture in return, his blood could not live. Loki's beauty, Loki's ugliness, Loki's love and Loki's hatred are all that can satisfy.
( He will have him. )

I stuffed all the original art in here, but some fanart snuck in too because I went ahead and made more before I could get around to posting this. THE NERVE OF ME.

Anyway, here we go, NSFW (again).



( Also beware of tentacles because there are some tentacles under here )

There are...more, but I will save it for another dump on another day.

My god have I fallen off the face of LJ or what. Okay. I'm actually really intimidated by making a post here because I'm used to just dumping ALL THE ART into one post and then running off giggling like a fart machine, and week after week more and more sketches and doodles keep popping up (a good thing, not a bad one) and now I have way too many to make into a coherent art post. So. I'll cut down to just some of my favorites, and link to others. THERE. MENTAL DEFICIENCY SOLVED.


I still have no excuse for drawing this.

( Pretty much every fandom/rating under the sun in here, NC-17 NSFW PORN PENISES BLOOD AND STUFF )